An odd mixtures of joy and sorrow...

badai melanda...berblogging semula...

2009-12-13T22:19:00.000-08:00

Cubicle office @ 220pm
Currently listening to Shari; Memori Bahagia

Bila jiwa terusik, bila hati terhiris...aku perlu teman utk mengadu, aku perlu tempat utk meluah rasa...agar apa yg terpendam dpt ku luah seadanya agar tidak terlalu berat dada ini menanggung beban dek perbuatan jiwa...

Dah lama aku tinggalkan zaman blogging..semenjak aku dipertemukan dgn dia aku lebih banyak masa bersama dia...kerana aku ade dia...kerana aku punya dia, tempat mengadu domba tempat utk aku berkongsi semua cerita...dia yang terindah yang pernah aku miliki dlm hidup aku sepanjang 26thn ni...

Dia sgl2nya buat aku...dia adalah jelmaan doa yang aku pinta yang aku tadah pd tuhan yang esa slama ni...segala2 kami lalui bersama...biarpun berjauhan...tp hati kami ttp bersma...dia sentiasa di sisi aku...

Tp saat ini...
Saat aku coretkan rahsia hati ni,aku telah dibuang...ditinggal pergi...dibiar sengsara sendri stelah aku beri segala2 yg pernah aku miliki...

apa yang berlaku bukanlah apa yg kupinta, bkn jua apa yg kurancang bersama dia...tp sgl2nya salah aku yg bodoh dan tuli dlm menghargai...kini aku kehilangan dia kerana kebodohan aku sendiri...

aku sedih, mata ni tak henti mengalirkan titis air yang tak pernah ku juraikan buat sesiapa...aku tak tau pd siapa lagi utk ku mengadu...aku buntu...aku keliru...

truth...

2007-02-18T23:55:00.000-08:00

All great truth are obvious truth but not all obvious truth are great truth... I love you always...

Andai engkau mengerti sayang...

2007-02-14T00:26:00.000-08:00

Rindu ini bertamu kembali
Saat ini hati dan jiwa sendu meratapi
Kegelisahan jiwa turut menjadi tetamu d birai hati
Mengapa ini terjadi?

Jangan dikau salahkan diri sendiri
Mungkin juga aku puncanya
Kerana satu selumbar yg terselit
Seperti sebiji batu besar yg menghempap diri
Mana mungkin aku membiarkn hatimu terus dlanda sendu?

Percayalah kasih,
Seluruh kasih dan sayang ini hanya untukmu
Tiap detik
Tiap saat
Hanya wajahmu yg bertamu

Tolonglah,
Beri aku peluang membuang selumbar itu
Jangan disimpan lagi
Bimbang nanti menjadi nanah yg tak terubati
Aku merayu
Aku melutut d hadapanmu
Seribu sesalan takkan mampu menutup satu noda yg tercela
Hanya keinsafan dlm jiwa yg menjadi buktinya
Jangan kau sangsi
Jangan kau ragui
Segala kasih dan sayang yg kuberi
Aku ikhlas menyintaimu
Bukan maksud hati membohongi diri sendiri

Sungguh!
Mungkin kadang kala aku tak memahami dirimu
Tapi aku cuba sekuat kudrat
Mengerti dirimu
Jangan kau pergi dari sisiku
Aku tak mampu menanggung segala dugaan ini tanpa dirimu
Bagaimana dengan kebahagiaan yg asyik kita angankan?
Siang terbayang sepi
Malam dbuai mimpi syurgawi
Indah bukan percintaan ini?

Cuma satu yang akan tetap utuh termeteri
Cintaku padamu yang selalu bersemi dalam jiwa syahdu penuh rindu ini
Maaf untuk segala cela.

"ni poem yg kta wat mlm 14feb tu,kta hrp itu akan jd ingtn utk kta bdua,k,syg gler kat awk!Hehe..."

2007-02-13T08:35:00.000-08:00

Hidup ini,
Penuh dengan ranjau berduri,
Ada kemanisan,
Juga kepahitan,
Walau sementara,
Cukup untuk mengajar kita,
Lebih bersedia,
Menghadapi dugaan ini,
Kau bagaikan sinar yang cerah,
Menerangi hidupku,
Tanpamu di sisi ku rasa bagaikan hilang punca dan arah yang dituju,
Jangan kau mungkiri,
Janji yang kau beri,
Cinta itu terindah,
Tika saatku bersamamu,
Semoga sentiasa membawakan kedamaian,
Biarpun berjauhan,
Tak mungkin ku melupakanmu,
Kesetiaan ini,
Bagiku kau permata asli...

Loveyoudamnmuch!
Missyoudamn much!
Reallyreally loveyoubaby...(^^,)

Somewhere over the rainbow

2006-11-27T04:59:00.000-08:00

Tangan aku yang terpaksa berbandage, sakit sehh

Wonderful view

Arini gi kuala kubu bharu, gi umah Makcik Sal untuk urut tangan aku yang getting worse ni. Dah bengkak sangat sebab terkehel jatuh kat fakulti 2 tahun lepas. Balik sempat snap few pictures of beautiful scenery. ada pelangi tu. cam lama sangat tak tengok pelangi.

Casino Royale

2006-11-26T12:23:00.000-08:00

Well, yesterday I went to see the new James Bond film, Casino Royale. I like James Bond movies for what they are: total fiction with cool gadgets, beautiful locales, and mostly good-looking women, in addition to the impossibly-cool Bond himself. But, unfortunately, I didn’t watch till the climax of the movie since one of friends has to balik kampong for an emergency matter.

I thought Casino Royale was decent: not one of my favorite Bond films, but not bad. It's nice to see on a big cinema screen where one can fully appreciate all the effects. Daniel Craig is OK, not bad. The villains are a little boring, though the bleeding eye guy is kind of cool. A decent film to watch if you like the action!

Happy birthday to my good friends, Farizza and Happy Belated Birthday to Aida, who are young in body and mind as always. We have celebrated together last night, which was always fun.

Reaching for my heart

2006-11-24T18:28:00.000-08:00

Today is my second times I visit this cyber café to surf net which is nearby with my resident. The gadgets here are awesome but the surrounding is bit noisy. Tak tau la bila my sister will pay my streamyx bill that has suspended since last Tuesday.

Nothing much that I want to jot down. :p I’m feeling bit muddled. I hurt many people recently, I guess. Poorer, most of my plans to hang out with my friends can’t be making up as what I planned and it’s totally spoilt me out.

7 days left before I start my new job at Bank Muamalat. I’m eager to start and meet new people yet feel bit tense and nervous as I don’t have any ideas how my new work will be. Hopefully I could meet the expectation and utilize my expertise and knowledge full swing tshow a good performance. Bwek2…

As for tomorrow, I will be in Malacca for a wedding ceremony. Besides, I got an invitation for my best friend’s birthday bash, Eja and attend a dinner with my friend, Y and Iwan. But, I didn’t decide yet whether I will carry on with that entire plan or not.

I’m in dim.

Parting

2006-11-20T22:42:00.000-08:00

*thinking*
Where should I start my writing today? I look at ceiling of my room and whilst play with my cell phone; hoping the thoughts will come.
-Since this noon I keep messaging with my friend who is now in JB, she going back to her kampong for semester break.

We are good friend and as far as I concern, we don’t have any problems at all but its bit strange when she told me that she will ceased from keeping in touch with me. At first she said she will switch to the other number and she asked me whether I want her new number or not. Off course I want. Then, the conversation getting intricated when I asked her reasons why she wants to stop here. I try to persuade her but I foiled. What could I say if that the only way that we have to strike the shackle, I will step backward for her own good.

After almost half an hour talking on the phone, she’s run out of battery and the conversation stop there. Few minutes later, I received a sms from her.

“ Saya kagum ngan lelaki, mudah je pemikiran korang erk. Minta maaf byk2. I really like you but maybe we are not meant to be together. So I tak selesa be friend dengan orang yang I suka. Thanks a lot Fir.”

I will be blissful if you are happy my dear.

Nothing I could do.
I’m not coward to committed with someone. But I have my own priorities and goals that I need to attain. My journey of life is still far ahead and there is a lot of road that I need to explore.

Ikhlas tapi jauh...

2006-11-18T18:50:00.000-08:00

This is a famous song originally from a great singer, Zainal Abidin and now VE had made a new version of it for a Malay movie; CINTA that will be in cinema end of this month. I really enjoy listen to this song especially in the prologue with a outstanding instruments and harmonizes tone of voice by VE. Nice!

Ikhlas Tapi Jauh
by VE

intro
Bila bila kiranya diriku perlu
Hari yang murung
Terdengar nada yang riang-ria

Sekali suara meyakinkan jiwa
Kaku langkah mengaguminya
Kaku menerimanya

Selagi bahuku
Memikul bebannya
Selagi hayatku
Merasa siksamu

Selama senyuman
Menjadi senyumku
Ku bawa wajahmu
Walau diriku jauh...
Jauh...

repeat intro
We are so young and free
Full of desire,
flying higher and higher
Oooh... feel so strong...

*Click to play the song ^^,

Letter Offer

2006-11-17T10:53:00.000-08:00

After a week I keep the offer letter from Bank Muamalat and today I decided to accept the offer since I don't have any problems for my medical check up. I'd meet Encik Hanif to hand it over this afternoon.

Employee Service Agreement

Letter Offer

I will start work this coming 4th December. Praised to Allah for the opportunity gave to me. Yes, I realized chance like this won't come easily as drop of rains. I have to work hard. :)

Xmas Catalogue: Sample Design 2

2006-11-15T10:56:00.000-08:00

Both Sides

Cover page

Inner part

Hohoho?Merry Christmas pals! Ahaks?Asal la pulak duk wish merry Christmas, sedangkan Christmas is a month ahead. Ni sebab aku dah settled makes another new design. I will propose two designs that I have to my sister.

Hopefully she will like it.

Anniversary

2006-11-13T16:54:00.000-08:00

Today is my anniversary with my special one. Hehehe...
Happy Anniversary, sayang. May bond between us will linger eternally.
Sayang awak!

Xmas Catalogue: Sample Design 1

2006-11-11T09:23:00.000-08:00

Both Sides

Front Page

Inner Page

This is a sample of design for my sister company for this coming Christmas festive. I manage to gather more materials and create another design for her.

Final Phase

2006-11-08T10:51:00.000-08:00

It was an anxious moments for me meeting the Chief Financial Officer of Bank Muamalat today. 10 of candidates had came and we having a grouping interview with Encik Zafer Hashim, for almost one and half hour. Each candidate have to well prepared with bunch of information especially on current issues in Malaysia and information relate to banking industry. Zillion thanks to Puan Azimah, Puan Azmah as well as Encik Haikal for feed up us with lot of tips and info. They are officer from Human Resource Department.

After a breaking ice session, Mr. X started asking questions and our opinions. He called the name according to profiles given to him. I feel bit jumpy. But at the end of the session, I become less tight and satisfied with my respond when he asked questions regarding UM current management and solutions to overcome certain issues in UM. I wish he contented with my thoughts as well.

Good news arrives again and again, its make me feel so lucky and blessed. Puan Azimah stepped in and announced that we been tender for superior opportunities compare to the previous agreement. All the candidates been offered for 6 months probation period instead of 12 months. Besides, wel be hiring as a permanent staffs with Bank Muamalat rather than a contractual employees if we be able to present a great performance within that time frame. Plus, we will have the benefits of immense facilities provided by the bank.

After a brief discussion, we dismiss. I will go for medical check up this Saturday and I have to ensure that there's no problem in my medical result before I agreed to sign the offer letter that I will take this Friday.

God, what a wonderful day!

Sampai menutup mata

2006-11-03T10:42:00.000-08:00

Today, someone has sent me a lyric of Acha’s song; Sampai menutup mata my myspace and I really into this song. This song is one of the soundtracks from OST Heart movie. The melody and the beautiful words used really touched my heart. Plus the song posses a very good synchronizes motion, aiseh cam la terel sgt. But I really like it!

Thanks my dear, its mean a lot to me.

Acha - Sampai menutup mata

Embun di padi buta
Menebarkan bau basah
Detik demi detik kuhitung
Inikah saat ku pergi
Oh Tuhan kucinta dia
Berikanlah aku hidup
Takkan kusakiti dia
Hukum aku bila terjadi

Aku tak mudah untuk mencintai
Aku tak mudah mengaku kucinta
Aku tak mudah mengatakan aku jatuh cinta

Senandungku hanya untuk cinta
Tirakatku hanya untuk engkau
Tiada dusta sumpah kucinta
Sampaiku menutup mata Cintaku...
Sampaiku menutup mata...

Third and the finale

2006-11-02T11:20:00.000-08:00

After almost couple of weeks, I got a phone call from Encik Hanif. He is one of the interview conductors at Muamalat.

"Congratulation Encik Firdaus, u have passed for 2 phases of interview formerly and we pleased to invite you to meet up our Chief Financial Officer on next Wed. "

Finally, i got the opportunity that i seeking for.
Hopefully I will be selected for the position.

Opportunities bring me into dilemma

2006-10-12T20:07:00.000-07:00

Here goes my writing again. It seems I being so diligent and has bunched of ideas this few days. It might because of the boredom I have to bear and as one of the ways that I could articulate my jiwa yang tgh kacau ni.

Ahh… let it be. Just look and step forward. That will be good.
Ye kot.

Alhamdulillah, praised to Allah. Rezeki mencurah-curah lately. I got phone calls from 2 companies that I’d applied for a vacancy. And now it put me stand at the middle of the junction. Either I should turn left for the mining company that located at Setiawangsa with monthly salary RM 1500 and offer a year contractual employment OR I should go to the other way which is Petronas. Petronas offer a contract basis job as well and pay extra another RM100. The opportunities are there, but kenapala ianya bukan my dream job. God, help me!
Am I so picky and choosy?

*Thinking*

No Title... ( Is it necessary?)

2006-10-10T11:48:00.000-07:00

Stare at my life and pass me by, isn’t easy. I don’t want to be frozen eternally in the shadow of my previous mistakes and definitely I don’t want to waste another day of my life for it. I try to chase every single day and try to fill it up with joy and delight that I desired for. But at the other side should I be anxious about an upcoming threat and peril that might be happen ahead?

I’m in quandary.

I hate a misfortune, weeping and cheating, all the fooling around.
Being alone and why it keeps repeating?

Please take me out from this dark hole.

I'm desperated!

Confession

2006-10-09T20:46:00.000-07:00

You should know; when a jerk and stupid person begin to hate you, it is because he/she love you to a point of passion that unhinges his/her soul.

I realize this is a really fu*king silly and dim-witted confession. However, it is what that i can called from the inner part of my heart. Its ruined my feelings and my mind.

Broken

2006-10-08T19:44:00.000-07:00

I wish that you would just leave. Cause your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone. These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real, there's just too much that time cannot erase.I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone. But though you're still with me,I've been alone all along.

Hatred

2006-10-07T11:40:00.000-07:00

Dogs love their friends and bite their enemies, quite unlike people, who are incapable of pure love and always have to mix love and hate.

Sigmund Freud

The other side of you

2006-10-06T01:38:00.000-07:00

It's nice to know that you were there. So thanks for acting like you cared and making me feel like I was the only one. It's nice to know we had it all. Thanks for watching as I fall and letting me know we were done.

Dear Allah...

2006-09-14T07:36:00.000-07:00

"Ya Allah, make my love for You the most beloved thing to me, and my fear for You the most fearful thing to me, and remove from me all worldly needs and wants by instilling a passion for meeting You, and when You have given the people of the world the pleasures of their world, make the coolness of my eyes (pleasure) in worshipping You."

Worship

2006-09-13T00:35:00.000-07:00

Every time you say "i love you",
my love grows even more for you...
I don't need the cruel world and all it's comfort, i only need you. ^^,

Congested

2006-09-10T02:17:00.000-07:00

The stream of life flows on despite famine and war I guess. Its full of its inherent contradictions and finding sustenance. The weak in spirit yield and are eliminated, but others carry the torch forward and hand it over to the standard-bearers of tomorrow.

From the point as man, life is a continuous struggle of man against man, of man against his surroundings, a struggle on both the physical and intellectual levels that go side by side whereby both aspects of man and nature are evident. That how a man credibility will be measured. Plus, life is a principle of growth; not of standing still, but it should have continuous works which does not permit of static and stereotype conditions.

Go Fir! Go lazy bum and lets make it happen!

KL Tower Charity Musical Walkathon 2006

2006-09-09T02:01:00.000-07:00

Main PosterHand WaveOfficial Tag
VIP Tag

Here are some of my designs for KL Tower Charity Musical Walkathon 2006. I've been assigned by masister to design it as we get a sub-contract from KL Tower Management for interior design as well as for the other art & design matters. Hopefully this will be a great beginning for "us". Zillion thanks to Jay for contributing his marvelous and brilliant ideas and art works. *grin*

Home

2006-09-05T06:55:00.000-07:00

Last few days, tengok citer The Wedding Date dengan abang. It's a romantic comedy movie tat had released mid of year 2005. The story was awesome, dan tetiba aku tersuka kat one of the soundtracks from this movie. I love the melody of the song and its fit wif my mood rite now. :P

Home by Michael Bubble

*Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go homeMmmmmmmm

*Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know
And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flatAnd you deserve more than that
Another aerorplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home

Mmmm, I’ve got to go home
Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home
And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not

Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in
merepeat*
Let me go home
I’ve had my runBaby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

Life is like a rollercoaster

2006-09-04T11:53:00.000-07:00

When life runs easy and smooth you never learn to live, never learn to struggle, never have to give everything that’s in you to make and pave your way filling every minute of a full length day.

When life is made too cozy, a bore it soon becomes. There is not much flavor in the unearned plums. Only that which costs you an effort to possess yields the satisfaction of pride and happiness.

When life becomes too easy, a dead end path it seems, no lively peach to strive for: no point in dreaming dreams, it’s the daily challenge that difficulty brings—teaching self-reliance in big and little things alike.

Stupid?

2006-09-01T08:48:00.000-07:00

I am so STUPID!
But I am not STUPID yet I am so STUPID!
I tried to please, but i dont get pleased.
I tried to satisfy, but i received no response.
I relieve myself from u, yet i still longing for u.
U know i luv u, yet u dont treat me like u do.

I hate me for being stupid, yet i cant help myself.
U know what i want, yet u dont want to give.
I give u all i can, and u know that i do.
U are part of me, do i part of u.
Do u?If u dont, then i am STUPID!

i tried to be strong... but how strong can a man be?
how much more can i take?

A mean life

2006-08-30T00:45:00.000-07:00

For as long as I can remember I've been in fear and it only gets worse as time goes on. Fear of my parents dying, fear of being alone, and fear of being happy lest something bad happen as punishment for arrogantly believing I should be happy. All my live I've lived in dreams, my fantasies a way to escape my own mind. I learned from very young that with my fantasies my fears would leave if only for a while. I know I've been running away from myself but I can't stop. I'm afraid. If I don't have my fantasies I'd be lost, they are what help me through the day. If I stop dreaming I'm afraid I'd go mad. I've always told myself that it's ok to have fantasies so long as I realize they are just that: fantasies. I watch movies, I read books, I listen to music to escape and to enjoy myself. I've always try not to hope as I indulge myself because to me it's a fact that dreams don't come true.

Sadly, no matter how much I try not to I still hope. As much as I try to convince myself otherwise I still hope. Life isn't fair, so many beings suffer, so many wrongs that will never be right, why should I believe my insignificant hopes would come true in a world filled with so much pain? I still hope for so much, someone that will love me and care for me the way I'd care for them. My mind feels so weak, so many years running from myself.

I'm just tired and afraid. Why is it so hard to love and be loved? Why do people prefer to play games to get what they want? Is it really so satisfying in the end, a few moments of happiness rather than a lifetime with someone who would love and cherish you? What's the use of giving your heart if you can't or won't give it completely? What's the use of saying "I love you" if you don't mean it with all your soul, if you can't see yourself with that person forever, shield them from pain, cherish them and make them the happiest person on earth? What's the point of not wanting it all for you too? Why play games to get something you want knowing it shouldn't be yours? Sooner or later it will fall apart. Is your lust and selfishness worth their heartbreak? Selfishness: to think you want something so bad you don't want to consider the other person's feelings and the consequences.

That's not love, love is when you rather see them go than see them hurt when your so call love runs out. Lucky is the person who gets their heart broken early on, but imagine how it must feel after so many years, when everything you believed in comes crumbling down. Books may be books and dreams may be just dreams to most but not to me. I can see myself in them, I know how much I can love, how much I can feel, how much I can give and I think it's only fair to want the same from someone else. I can't see why people would settle for anything less.

If two people are willing to be true to themselves, to their hearts, no games, no lies it can happen. To feel so much love that you'd feel incomplete without them that are the way that love should be. Someone that would understand your pain, your fears and not grow impatience and distant but rather show you they'd do anything in their power to stop the pain. Someone who’d love you in every way as if they'd be empty without you. Is it so wrong to want this if you know you can give it as well? I do want to believe in the goodness of love and of people but I'm afraid that I can't. I don't know if I ever will, I'm just afraid, afraid of heartbreak, afraid of loneliness, afraid of pain, afraid to hope, afraid to love...

*fatigue*

L * V E

2006-08-29T06:41:00.000-07:00

Feeling anxious

2006-08-22T03:39:00.000-07:00

Recently, I feel tat time fly very fast, it's already a week after my convocation and I still can't find a good jobs for myself. Today is the third week of August and we only have few weeks to meet Ramadan. Hopefully with a bit of luck I could be hired by this September. It's utterly different even though I'm working for my sister at her office. Yet, I still need to be exposing with the real and actual working environment as my prior workplace.

May Allah answer my pray.

What friendship means to me

2006-08-18T00:34:00.000-07:00

Do you ever wonder what its like to have a best friend?

Some one who would give a heart to lend.

That is what friendship means to me.

A friend that does not turn away from me.

A friend that would not ditch me at all.

A friend to make sure I stand tall.

A friend that understands my pain.

A friend is what I need to gain.

A friend that is close to me.
F R I E N D S H I P, is something that I wish never flew away from me.

* I miss my old pals.

Rationales to smile...

2006-08-12T10:31:00.000-07:00

I frequently use a phrase of "Smile opens up compassion, enlightens bond of faith". Unfortunately, I futile to apply it in my daily life and people around me always asked me to smile. Many of them said that I look arrogant while I'm in serious or normal look.

Urm... Its make me to think for awhile. I have to take consider other's opinion upon myself for my own good. Here, there are 10 reasons why I should smile... *grin*

1. I will looks better than a frown
2. It improves my day
3. It makes other people's day bright
4. I could make new friends
5. Shows friendship
6. Leaves favorable impressions
7. Enjoyable to give and receive
8. Makes me look happy, confident, and self-assured
9. Puts others at ease
10. A smile could be the start of a lifetime relationship

Isn't it?^^

Memoirs of...

2006-08-07T01:29:00.000-07:00

I'll always look back as I walk away. I realize that memories will last for perpetuity and soon, all of my tears will be vanished in the rain.
I shall be thankful & gratified for be acquainted with u and tat chance doesn't come as easy as drop of rains.

happy birthday dear. *Hugs & Kisses*

Friendship Day

2006-08-01T06:25:00.000-07:00

HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY!
"Friendship is the golden thread that ties all heart together."

Dear my best friends ever;
Aus, Farizza, Kak Lina, Fik, Aida, B and Faizah.

I wish I could make a vitamin, fill it with all the wonderful feelings you've given me and distribute them to people around me. Tru tat way, people could smile like I smile and think about life the way I do. I've never met somebody as sweet as you. Somebody who never makes me feel sad and u always there. Ready to catch me if I fall, somebody who makes me feel secure and safe, all the time. You're such a great best friend I couldn't ever ask for more and I'm so happy you are in my life-even though you're my best friend, I kind of wish I could share you with the world. Thanks for everything and may our friendship will last eternally. I dedicated this remarkable song for you.

Free + Horrified News

2006-07-31T23:23:00.000-07:00

I'm FREE!!! Aku dah berenti keje.Ayok! keje baru tak carik lagi. :/

***

My mum admitted at PPUM since last few days because of her asthma and I have to accompany her tonight. May she get well soon :(

Bad Asthma

2006-07-27T06:22:00.000-07:00

I woke up early this morning since my mum gets asthma on 3am in the dawn. She refuses to go to the hospital but only after subuh prayer she wants us to send her to the nearest clinic, Klinik Idham. After waiting for a few minutes, nurse calls my mum's name. Lepas a few check up by the doctor, my mum gets a nebulizer aid by the doctor. She relieve for hours. Praised to Allah.

Getting closer...

2006-07-25T21:20:00.000-07:00

Almost 5 hours we spent our time together last night. It was a great opportunities to know him better as my lil brother. Lot of thing that we've discussed and he's start to shrivel the distance by sharing and disclosed his secrets with me. He really needs some one who could guide and steer him to the right path. Even thought I am not the right person but I have big responsibilities on him. I could feel that deep inside his heart, he really wants to evolve to be a better person cause I've ahead of the same circumstances. He's perseverance in get through his life. I wish I'll be able to lift a finger to him as to make a move.

I'm gonna leave!

2006-07-23T20:16:00.000-07:00

Gosh!
What a hectic life tat I went through last couple of weeks.
Been yelling like a donkey,
Bundle of works,
etc... etc... etc... *other dim-witted matters!

This bloody ****** environment couldn't be adapted by me. I try to fix with the box, but either the box is too gigantic or myself is too finicky and fussy.I've made up my mind tat I will precede wif my resignation and seek for a new job opportunity tat might confer me more room to take a breath. I dun want to gamble my dignity as she taught she are briliant enough. *DEVIL*

Looser?!

2006-07-10T21:15:00.000-07:00

I’m being clumsy and mess up at my office today, bundle of tasks have to be completed and many thing that I have to figure out by my own. Everything like a jigsaw puzzle, I need to mix and match it, as to get the actual picture.

But I’m not a looser; I will take it as a challenge that for sure will benefit me later.
May everything will run smoothly.

Dealova

2006-07-05T06:06:00.000-07:00

I got this terrific song from my little brother, Fik. He sent me via bluetooth last month when we went out for a dinner in sentul. Aku tau lagu ni dah agak basi since dah lama dah kluar kat radio and previously aku ignored je. =P But when I begin to listen, i want to listen it again and again, I fall in love with the song. The lyrics and the melody are damn beautiful and I could feel tat each verse of this song tries to articulate the real "feeling".

aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurm
uaku ingin menjadi sesuatu yg mungkin bisa kau rindu
karena langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu
oh karena hati tlah letih

aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yg selalu bisa kau sentuha
ku ingin kau tahu bahwa ku selalu memujamu
tanpamu sepinya waktu merantai hati
oh bayangmu seakan-akan

kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku
yg memanggil rinduku padamu
seperti udara yg kuhela kau selalu ada
hanya dirimu yg bisa membuatku tenang
tanpa dirimu aku merasa hilang
dan sepi, dan sepi
selalu ada, kau selalu ada
selalu ada, kau selalu ada...

Superman Returns

2006-07-02T05:56:00.000-07:00

"Look up in the sky...
it's a bird...
it's a plane...
no it's a guy in form-fitting tights,
that's the spitting image of our mind's eye's Superman...
now how they do that."

There's a lot riding on this Superman's broad blue shoulders. Not only does newcomer Brandon Routh (7th sexiest heroes) have to deal with a comparison to the late Christopher Reeve (the definitive screen Superman) but "Superman Returns" has to blow the stink off two very weak sequels, "Superman III" and "Superman IV". Many has shown two thumbs down for the "Returns".

As for me and my fellow friends, we enjoyed watching the movie where's the most important part, we could spent our precious time together. But, I'm just thinking, can Brandon Routh win the heart of movie goers like how the late Christopher Reeve affirming the role of Superman as our ultimate superhero saviour and break the movie boxoffice? :D It's in your hand...

Afar

2006-06-13T05:16:00.000-07:00

I'm at loose end today. Being alone. Seperti hari-hari sebelum ni yang aku lalui. Banyak benda yang aku titipkan dalam kepala ni. Banyak masalah yang perlu aku leraikan tiap simpulnya. Kadang-kala aku terfikir, sampai bila harus aku lalui kehidupan seperti ni. Hidup dalam ketidakpastian.Hidup dalam kepura-puraan. Terlalu banyak simpang perlu aku ambil. For sake of other’s feelings. I am afraid someone will hurt with my decision especially my mum.
*****
Inner part of my heart, I am thinking of you and I really miss you. I truly miss your smile, your voice...Whenever that feeling swing by in my heart, I look at your picture and deep into your eyes. How I wish you were here, beside me. Accompany me to go through this cruel life and to encounter a trying time that I face.However, I realize that i only trying to catch the pie over the skies. It is only a bare dream to feel your love. It is impossible for me.

Treasure of verve

2006-06-07T01:07:00.000-07:00

Life full of uncertainty and hold too much hopes. My life won't always beautiful, yet I couldn’t fulfill what that I desired. At times, I felt unsecured. I grasp whatever obstacles attempt to block my route, I should face it and ought to be vigorous, exuberance, as he said everything happens for reasons, and I should dig cradle to grave for the wisdoms against it. Ya Allah, kindly send me someone that could hold tight my hand and guide me to the right path in searching and probing for your blessing.
"A grin will never lose and frown will never ever prevail."
-I do believe-

One soul, two bodies

2006-05-31T17:03:00.000-07:00

A friend give hope when my life is low.

A friend is place where i can go.

A friend is a shelter while my day fill with shadow,

A friend is precious.

A friend is true.

Feeling Blue

2006-05-27T00:46:00.000-07:00

How you will react and what you will feel when u sleep late at night and woke up early in the morning, u rushing the entire day, completed ur work in hurry even cancelled all ur crucial dates and appointments,You beat the time, miss ur lunch and even ur dinner with ur mum, simply want to having ur dinner with ur very loved one as to celebrate ur success.Priory, you already text ur friend that u will fetch him/she at his/her workplace, not once but more than 3 times. But suddenly when you almost reach at the place, ur friend called and said,“ Takyah dating amik aku, aku balik ngan member aku.Nak teman dia since dia kena pau semalam.” “takpun ko antar dia sekalila kat kampong b*ru”Aduh!It’s totally spoilt up my mood and makes me feel like ****
I feel frustrated though!

Welcome Home

2006-05-14T04:42:00.000-07:00

Recently, every single thing goes the other way round in my life and in the same time, bunch of opportunities come across that I shall take hold of. What bygone be bygone. Nothing that I could bend and amend on what had happened. It's already be a history of my gloom life. But, I'm still standing here and hoping for a miracle to take place...

Cover page

2006-03-27T01:42:00.000-08:00

I'm just finished designing a cover page for my Report Writing assignment and I really put an effort on it since Puan Mac said a good presented proposal will get an extra bonus marks and need to be submitted this Wednesday. It’s a chance for me right and this is the result. Not to bad lar for the amateur as me.

Part 2: Menjalin persahabatan

2006-03-05T21:56:00.000-08:00

Rasulullah SAW menggariskan beberapa perkara bagi memilih teman atau kawan yang baik, antaranya :

1.Hendaklah bersahabat dengan orang yang bertakwa dan beriman Sabda Baginda bermaksud:"Jangan kamu bersahabat melainkan dengan orang yang beriman dan jangan berikan makan kecuali kepada orang yang bertakwa." (Hadis riwayat Abu Daud dan at- Tirmizi).

2.Hindari daripada berkawan dengan yang buruk perangai dan akhlaknya Ibn Asakir menceritakan bahawa Rasulullah SAW bersabda: "Jauhilah kawan yang buruk (akhlak dan perangainya), kamu akan dikenali sepertinya." Sabda Baginda lagi : "Seseorang itu berada atas cara hidup kawannya, maka perhatikanlah tiap seorang daripada kamu, siapakah yang didampinginya." (Hadis riwayat at-Tirmizi dan Abu Daud).

3.Menegur kesilapan kawan di atas perkara yang benar Ubadah Ibn As-Samit berkata: Rasulullah SAW mengikat janji dengan kami supaya dengar dan patuh ketika susah dan senang, yang disukai dan dibenci dan jangan merebut sesuatu dari tuannya kecuali ada bukti kekufurannya. Begitu juga, kami hendaklah berkata benar di mana saja kami berada tanpa takut akan penghinaan daripada seseorang yang suka menghina, semata-mata kerana Allah. (Hadis riwayat Muslim).

4.Membantu kawan ketika kesempitan Daripada Ibn Umar bahawa Rasulullah SAW bersabda: "Seorang Muslim dengan Muslim yang lain adalah bersaudara, dia tidak menzaliminya dan tidak mengelakkan diri daripada menolongnya, sesiapa yang melepas hajatnya, sesiapa yang melepaskan saudaranya daripada sesuatu kesempitan, maka Allah akan melepaskan satu kesempitan daripada kesempitan-kesempitan hari kiamat, dan sesiapa yang menutup (keaiban) saudaranya, maka Allah akan melindunginya pada hari kiamat." (Hadis riwayat Al-Bukhari dan Muslim).

INTIPATI Mencari sahabat sejati Persahabatan Rasulullah SAW dengan Abu Bakar adalah contoh terbaik umat akhir zaman dalam memperjuangkan agama. Mempunyaii kawan yang baik mampu membimbing kita ke arah kebaikan. Sahabat hendaklah dicari daripada kalangan orang beriman dan bertakwa. Sahabat yang mempunyai perangai dan akhlak yang buruk hendaklah dijauhi.

Wallahua'lam

Part 1: Menjalin persahabatan

2006-03-01T20:23:00.000-08:00

Kita sering diingatkan supaya berhati-hati dalam memilih kawan. Rakan yang baik akan membawa kebaikan, sebaliknya yang jahat membawa kemudaratan. Persahabatan Nabi Muhammad SAW dengan Saidina Abu Bakar adalah ikatan persaudaraan yang perlu dicontohi umat Islam. Mereka sama-sama terbabit dalam perniagaan sehingga menjadi sahabat karib. Kedua-duanya mempunyai akhlak mulia, sama haluan dalam perjuangan sehingga terjalin kasih sayang dan kemesraan. Persahabatan Rasulullah SAW dengan Abu Bakar adalah contoh terbaik umat akhir zaman dalam memperjuangkan agama. Ia sewajarnya dijadikan panduan bagi umat Islam memilih kawan yang baik.

Keutamaan Abu Bakar di mata Rasulullah dijelmakan menerusi sabda Baginda bermaksud: "Jika ditimbang keimanan Abu Bakar dengan keimanan umat sekaliannya, nescaya akan berat lagi keimanan Abu Bakar." (Hadis riwayat al-Baihaqi).

Rasulullah SAW juga meluahkan isi hatinya kepada Abu Bakar seperti dinaqalkan dalam buku susunan Syed Ahmad Semait, Sepuluh Yang Dijaminkan Masuk Syurga, katanya:
"Semoga Allah merahmatimu! Engkau adalah sahabatku! Engkau telah membenarkanku ketika orang lain mendustakanku, engkau telah membantuku ketika orang lain membiarkanku, engkau telah beriman kepadaku ketika orang lain mendustakanku, engkau telah mententeramkan hatiku ketika hatiku sedang dalam keadaan keluh kesah. Sesungguhnya tiada siapa pun, biar apa pun sekali yang dilakukannya buat diriku yang dapat menyamai apa yang dibuat olehmu."

Allah SWT memilih Abu Bakar sebagai teman karib Rasulullah SAW dalam mendokong usaha dakwah amat bertepatan sekali.

Mencari kawan yang baik dan mampu membimbing ke arah kebaikan. Rasulullah SAW bersabda yang bermaksud:
"Teman yang baik dan teman yang tidak baik itu diumpamakan seperti pembawa kasturi dan peniup api, maka si pembawa kasturi mungkin memberikan kasturi itu kepada kamu atau kamu dapat membelinya, atau kamu dapat mencium baunya yang wangi. Bagaimanapun peniup api mungkin membakar pakaianmu atau kamu dapat mencium baunya yang busuk."
(Hadis riwayat al-Bukhari dan Muslim).

Mix up

2005-12-08T01:35:00.000-08:00

Lepas subuh jadi rutin buat aku tidur semua sejak beberapa minggu ni...suddently aku terjaga, aku terus bingkas bangun dr katil dan terus mandi dan bersiap ke UM.Aku mimpi yang paper corporate taxation aku failed. Memang aku lost confident dan predict yang aku akanrepeat paper nih next semester since aku miscaluculate a few things dalam calculation aku exam paper ni.Tapi berkat doa mak dan ayah, it was beyond my expectation and i got grade B for this paper. praised to Allah.

Nearly 3 bulan lebih aku tak jumpa sahabat baik aku daus, rindu giler kat dia.:P dari lepas zuhur sampai kul 8pm tadi baru aku balik.Itu pun sebab aku dah ada hal nak kena settle. Tadi kuar ngan daus sempat gak pi makan, burak-burak dan merayau sana sini sambil settlekanhal dia dan hal aku.

Insya Allah this saturday aku,din,fina ngan elyn nak pi bbq kat sungai...so tadi lepak ngan diorang kat McD and made a plan for this weekend.Lamanya tak mandi sungai, sure seronok...

Because of you

2005-12-07T10:21:00.000-08:00

Last weekend my sis beli cd Kelly Clarkson. Everytime naik her car sure lagu yang sama dia pasang. Even her caller ring tone and her ringing tone pun are the same song. isk... Its bit bored as the first, but when i listen the song again and again. Cambest lak. Ni la lagu dia.

click to play ^^,

Emptiness

2005-12-05T01:15:00.000-08:00

Aku tak tau kenapa aku rasa dia sangat dekat dengan aku. Bukan physically tapi kat hati aku. Dia tanya aku,aku suka dia ke? Aku kelu... tak terjawab aku soalan dia. Aku keliru sebenarnya dengan perasaan dan rasa hati aku sendiri. Terlalu banyak perkara yang perlu aku fikirkan.

aAu masih ada banyak tanggungjawab yang belum terlunas. I'm not coward to be burden up with the responsibilities tapi aku khuatir andai aku akan sakiti dia yang aku sayang. Imra masih lagi kat hati aku dan terlalu banyak perkara yang berlaku antara aku dengan Imra...
Bukan mudah untuk aku cari yang baru sebagai pengganti hanya semata-mata untuk mengisi kekosongan hidup aku...

Being sentimental

2005-12-04T10:12:00.000-08:00

A few days ni mood aku very the sentimental. Layan lagu jiwang-jiwang. Teringat kat someone yang pernah sayang aku dan orang yang pernah aku sayang. Tapi malangnya dengan kata-kata sayang je tak memadai. Ianya tetap perlukan pengorbanan...Cheh...

Aku terkenang

2005-12-02T10:09:00.000-08:00

Suddently, aku teringat kat someone yang dah lama pergi tinggalkan aku sendiri. He's my late brother. Mohd Hadith yang aku panggil abang. Entahla... rasa rindu tu hadir sendiri.
Aku rindu akan laungan azan dia...
Aku rindu dengan alunan suara dia mengaji al quran...
Seriously, aku rindu bangat kat dia. Dialah yang banyak memimpin aku ke jalan yang diredhaiNya. Pelbagai ilmu yang aku perolehi dari dia. Dia umpama gudang ilmu buat aku. Dia jugala tempat aku mencurah segala rahsia dan masalah yang aku lalui.
Andai waktu bisa aku putar semula, ingin aku lalui detik seperti dulu berulang kali.
Namun, semalam tetap menjadi satu pengalaman buat aku.Abang adis, adik doakan kehidupan abang kat sana diredhai Allah dunia dan akhirat.

Small Reunion

2005-12-01T03:07:00.000-08:00

Aku baru balik dari kuar lepak ngan member kelas sekolah menengah dulu. Initially plan nak pergi tengok wayang.CeritaPontianak Harum Sundal Malam 2. Unfortunately all tickets sold out since we all gamble je pergi midvalley tonight without made any tickets reservation. So tukar plan ke telawi, since parking kat sana memang susah sangat nak cari terus pergi ke kampung baru.Pekena nasi lemak kat Ct Garden and we spent almost 3 hours there.

Seronok, lama tak jumpa member.

Freedom

2005-11-24T18:04:00.000-08:00

Merdeka...
Merdeka...

Hahaha... hari ni my last paper for this semester.Such a huge burden have been threw out today and i have another 1 semester to go to complete my Bacc.Pergh... Lamanya tak update blog nih sebab within last 2 weeks aku dalam mood exam.Aku plan cuti ni nak tukar layout and update my wordpress site yang ina bagi.
Insya Allah...

Final Examination

2005-11-16T01:02:00.000-08:00

Hari my first paper for final examination this semester. Corporate Taxation in Malaysia.Wish i can do my best to achieve my target this semester. Moga Allah berkati usaha aku selama ni.Insya Allah...

Malas

2005-11-10T10:00:00.000-08:00

wow...
lately aku malasnya nak update blog. Tak tau la kenapa. Nak kata aku sibuk study for this coming final exam, tak juga.There's something that distracts my mind...
Ya Allah, berilah aku ketenangan.

Stress

2005-10-03T01:06:00.000-07:00

Rasa nak pecah gak kepala ni since most of assignments have to submit and present within this couple of weeks. As for Biz Ethic and Corporate Taxation, its wont be much problems but bila citer pasal subjek Corporate Accounts dengan Tourism Management kepala aku tetiba nak biol. wakakaka... ^^

Deleted?

2005-09-28T10:35:00.000-07:00

Most of my entries in Aug and Sept have been deleted disebabkan beberapa masalah yang tak dapat dielakkan. ^^ Moga-moga, kenangan yang ada juga akan terdelete hendaknya bersama-sama entri tu nanti. Ahaks...
Now, I need to get back on track and give all my focus on my study and assignments yang melambak tu. What bygone be bygone. ^^

Blessing Friday

2005-08-19T21:59:00.000-07:00

Sebab Sebab kita susah...Dalam Kitab Al- Baqarah Fii fadl Lis Sa'yiwal Harokah yang di susun oleh Abi Abdillah Muhammad Bin Abdulrahman Al Habsyi telah diterangkan perkara - perkara yang mempunyai hubung kait dengan kesusahan seseorang. Iaitu:
* Tidak Solat
* Bila hendak makan tidak membaca Bismillah
* Makan di atas pinggan yang terbalik
* Memakai kasut memulakan dengan sebelah kiri
* Menganggap ringan apa - apa yang terjatuh dalam hidangan makanan
* Berwuduk di tempat membuang air besar atau kecil
* Suka bersandar pada pintu rumah
* Suka duduk di atas tangga
* Membiasakan diri membasuh tangan dalam pinggan selepas makan
* Membasuh tangan dengan tanah @ tepung
* Tidak membersih rumah
* Membuang atau menyapu sampah dengan kain
* Suka membersih rumah pada waktu malam
* Suka tidur atas muka
* Membakar kulit bawang
* Menjahit baju yang sedang dipakai
* Mengesat muka dengan baju
* Berdiri dengan bercekak pinggang
* Tidur tidak pakai baju
* Makan sebelum mandi junub ( mandi hadas )
* Tergesa - gesa keluar masjid selepas sembahyang ( subuh )
* Matahari belum terbit sudah pergi ke pasar
* Lambat pulang dari pasar
* Berdoa hal yang tidak baik
* Tidak menutup makanan yang dihidangkan
* Suka memadam lampu minyak tanah atau lilin dengan nafas
* Membuang kutu kepala dalam keadaan hidup
* Membasuh kaki dengan tangan kanan
* Suka kencing pada air yang mengalir
* Memakai seluar sambil berdiri
* Memakai serban sambil duduk
* Mandi junub di tempat buang air atau najis
* Makan dengan menggunakan dua jari
* Berjalan antara dua kambing*
Berjalan antara dua perempuan
* Suka mempermainkan janggut
* Suka meletakkan jari tangan di atas bahagian lutut
* Meletakkan tapak tangan di hidung
* Suka menggigit kuku
* Suka mendedahkan aurat di bawah sinar matahari @ bulan
* Mengadap kiblat ketika buang air
* Menguap ketika solat
* Meludah di tempat buang air

Wallahu a'lam

Homestay: Decided!

2005-08-14T10:44:00.000-07:00

After more than a week, akhirnya my group for Tourism Management had decided to pick Kampung Haji Dorani as our place to fulfill our assigment's requirement. Below are the brief information regarding this homestay that I gather from virtualmalaysia.com.

Dorani Homestay Village.
Located in Selangor, a journey from Kuala Lumpur to Dorani Homestay Village takes about one hour. The homestay programme is a special holiday package where you have the opportunity to stay with farmers and gain the experience pertaining to farmers' and villagers' unique daily activities such as paddy-planting and batik painting.

As fishing is one of the main activities in this area, one can try their skill at fishing by the paddy fields -- the traditional way. Other main attractions for tourists include fire flies observation and crab hunt at the mangrove swamps that is abound in the village vicinity. For those wanting to savour the laid-back life of the villagers, relax and unwind while feasting the eyes at the beauty of mother nature.
Sungai Hj Dorani Homestay Programme Contact:
En. Abd Rahman Daud at +603-32410846 or 013-6077025

Switching Subjects

2005-08-11T10:13:00.000-07:00

Due to few reasons from management of my faculty, my friends and I have to switch out MIS subject to the other elective subject. Since we don't have much choices, so we have decided to take Tourism Management. It's 3 credit hours subject that will be conducted by a lecturer from UiTM and Puan Nana as my tutor.

Briefly about this subject, I need to complete a group assignment and make a report regarding a homestay development and background in Malaysia. Its need to be present in lectures about next couple of months. Yang boring sungguh bila lectures ni hari selasa pagi kul 8am. Argh.... malasnya. Gigihla hendaknya aku. ^^

Daus's 22nd Birthday.

2005-08-07T10:23:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to my ever dearest twin, Daus.
May all ur wishes come true and may Allah shower u with His bless.

Blessing Friday 2: Cinta Allah, Cinta Hakiki

2005-07-29T21:25:00.000-07:00

Firman Allah Ta'ala : "Dan di antara manusia ada orang yang mengangkat sembahan-sembahan selain Allah ; mereka mencintainya sebagaimana mencintai Allah. Adapun orang-orang yang beriman sangat cinta kepada Allah." (Al-Baqarah : 165)
Ayat ini menunjukkan barangsiapa mempertuhankan selain Allah dgn mencintainya seperti mencintai Allah maka dia adalah musyrik.

"Katakanlah: "Jika bapa², anak², saudara², isteri², kaum keluargamu, harta kekayaan yang kamu usahakan, perniagaan yang kamu khuatirkan kerugiannya, dan rumah² tempat tinggal yang kamu sukai ; itu lebih kamu cintai daripada Allah dan Rasul-Nya dan (daripada) berjihad di jalan-Nya, maka tunggulah sampai Allah m'datangkan keputusan-Nya." (At-Taubah: 24)
Ayat ini menunjukkan bahawa cinta kepada Allah dan cinta kepada yang dicintai Allah wajib didahulukan di atas segala-galanya.

Al-Bukhari dan Muslim meriwayatkan dari Anas RA, bahawa Rasulullah SAW bersabda: "Ada tiga perkara, barangsiapa terdapat dalam dirinya ketiga-tiga perkara itu, dia pasti merasakan manisnya iman, iaitu Allah dan Rasul-Nya lebih dicintainya daripada yang lain ; mencintai seseorang tiada lain hanya kerana Allah ; dan benci kembali kepada kekafiran setelah diselamatkan Allah darinya sebagaimana dia enggan dicampakkan ke dalam api."
Wajib mencintai Rasulullah SAW lebih daripada kecintaan terhadap diri sendiri, keluarga dan harta benda. Bahawa iman ada rasa manisnya, kadangkala dapat diperoleh seseorang dan kadangkala tidak.

Ibnu Jarir meriwayatkan dari Ibnu 'Abbas RA, bahawa ia berkata: "Barangsiapa mencintai seseorang kerana Allah, membenci seseorang kerana Allah, membela seseorang kerana Allah dan memusuhi seseorang kerana Allah, maka sesungguhnya kecintaan dan pertolongan dari Allah hanyalah boleh diperoleh dengan hal tersebut. Dan seorang hamba tidak akan menemukan rasa nikmatnya iman, sekalipun banyak solat dan puasanya, sehingga dia bersikap demikian. Persahabatan di antara manusia pada umumnya didasari atas kepentingan dunia, namun hal itu tidak berguna sedikitpun bagi mereka."
Disebutkan empat sikap yang merupakan syarat mutlak untuk memperoleh kewalian dari Allah, dan seseorang tidak akan menemukan rasa nikmatnya iman kecuali dengan keempat sikap itu.

Pemahaman Ibn 'Abbas terhadap realiti, bahawa hubungan persahabatan pada umumnya didasarkan atas kepentingan duniawi.
Disebutkan bahawa di antara orang² musyrik ada yang mencintai Allah dengan kecintaan yang mendalam. Memuja selain Allah dengan mencintainya sebagaimana mencintai Allah, itulah syirik akbar.
Allahu Ta'ala a'lam...

Source: Ukhwah.com

Short & Precise

2005-07-26T08:21:00.000-07:00

Walau tak mampu lafaz salam perpisahan, namun tak sabar menanti saat bertemu lagi...

Kacau

2005-07-23T00:19:00.000-07:00

Aku risau...
Aku khuatir...
Jiwa dan pemikiran aku bercelaru. Dah 2 3 kali aku lihat mak termenung.Termenung jauh, hingga tiap kali aku tegur dan panggil; dia tak sedar akan panggilanku. Aku risau ya Allah... Aku takut, aku belum bersedia untuk menghadapi segala kemungkinan. Aku sedar yang mak semakin berusia. Aku belum bersedia untuk itu semua. Berilah aku ruang dan peluang untuk aku lunaskan tanggungjawabku padanya.

Agar dia dapat lihat aku berjaya. Agar dia dapat lihat aku berkeluarga. Ya Allah, dialah sumber kekuatanku agar aku mampu mengharungi kepahitan hidupku selama ni. Dia jualah yang sentiasa membakar semangat untuk aku terus lalui kehidupan ini. Aku belum bersedia. Bagaimanakah perjalanan hidupku nanti tanpanya. Bagaimana hari-hari yang bakal aku lalui tanpanya ya Allah. Moga Kau panjangkan umurnya dan moga Kau payunginya dengan rahmah dan keredhaanMu, ya Allah.

Amin

Final Year Activities

2005-07-17T09:14:00.000-07:00

Kelas aku agak pack semester ni. Bukan sahaja agak pack, subjek-subjek yang aku amik pun memang tough tahap cipan. For this week aku dah spent RM200 untuk beli 3 buah buku, there's another 3 books that i have to buy. Tunggu dululah... Scholarship dah masuk, tapi dah nak abis.Huhuhu...

Untuk final year ni, aku try nak participate on certain faculty's activities esspecially, Business Pioneer Club punya aktiviti. For the time being, high committee (including aku ke?) tgh plan nak buka Bistro, its mean our business nature is to sells food during our convocation week this coming august. Thus, aku banyak kali kena attend meeting. Huh! As a first moves, we had discuss on what sort of meals that we will provides during the week, the session has been separated into 3 session; breakfast, lunch as well as dinner.

For our initial capital, we decided to issues shares to our buddies. 1 lot of share contain 50 shares at par, RM1 and all the net profit generated from the business soon, will be devided equally to the share holder. Try nak run business ni sebab nak raise fund for our coming activity this end of November. We manage to have " Kinabalu Exploration" as our last club project. Its cost nearly RM800 per person, which is inclusively our accommodation, our equipment to climb the Kinabalu Mountain, our flight tickets and other expenses.
Hopefully, its will properly plans and will comes with an excellent result.

Welcome Back

2005-07-11T09:10:00.000-07:00

Welcome back to University of Malaya.
Huh... Hari ni first day in 7th semesters, tahun akhir. Kuliah hari ni pun dah start. Erm... mata yang keranjang ni, melilau gak tengok budak-budak freshies yang jambu-jambu. Isk! aku ni jamu mata dari jamu ilmu. ^^ As my plan for this semester, I have and force to put lot of effort for this semester compare to previous semesters since this semester's schedule are pretty hectic. I'll try my best and try to the fullest. Semester ni aku amik 21 credit hours. Banyak tuh kan. Antara subjek yang aku maik semester ni;

Corporate Accounting- 4 credit hours ( most tough subject in my course )
Advance Audit- 4 credit hours ( Lecturer yang sama dok ngaja, Dr. Margarate Boh )
Corporate Tax- 4 credit hours ( Lecturer yang in-charge Industrial Training aku )
Commercial Law- 3 credit hours ( New Lecturer from UUM )
Business Ethic- 3 credit hours ( Best, takdak tuto sebab ada paper work )
Management Info. Syst- 3 credit hours ( subject that regarding accounts & technology, should be great )

Hopefully, semester ni aku lebih gigih untuk study, tak banyak main, jaga solat dan solat di awal waktu, buat tutorial dan attend kelas seterusnya dapat improve pointer aku semester ni.
Insya Allah. Doakan aku yea.Amin.

Spring Cleaning

2005-07-06T23:55:00.000-07:00

Fuhhh... (*_*)
For the rest of the day aku buat spring cleaning kat bilik aku. Dah siap drill book shelf yg aku beli kat IKEA dengan Daus isnin lepas alih sana... alih sini.... Siap!! Penat... the only word yg boleh aku describe ari ni. Lepas maghrib tadi aku teman mak ke Makro Cheras, mak nak beli barang sikit dan sebelum balik rumah kitorang tapau Chicken Chop dengan air mata kucing kat Moon's KITCHEN pandan indah. Aku makan sesuap dua jerk... mak suapkan... jangan marah. Hehehehe... Dalam pukul 930pm tadi aku dah kluar pi amik daus kat flat sam pen. Malam ni dia nak gerak balik Arau. huh!... balik dah member aku ke Campus. Boring la aku lepas ni. Kitorang sempat gak pi minum kat port kitorang kat Taman Tenaga. Mamat ni kata barang ciput, sekali nah!! Dengan gitar dia dan 2 beg bagak tak ingat... Ehehehe... Bas dia pukul 1130pm tadi. Erm... ni baru sampai rumah lah ni. So, tak tau nak wat pe.
zzzzZZzZ...

Hang out

2005-07-04T08:23:00.000-07:00

Seawal kul 630 pagi aku dah bangun dan tak tidon lagi lepas subuh tadi. Eeheheh... hari ni memang banyak plan dengan daus. Pagi ni aku kena siap-siap kemas baju yng melambak dalam almari tu yang berpunggah. Vacuum bilik dan bersihkan cooler yang dah berhabuk tuh. Aku try booked ticket nak tengok War of The World kat Berjaya Times Square. But, all tickets were fully booked. Try my luck jerk pegi kaunter harap dapat tiket. Lepas Zohor tadi keluar pergi amik daus dan terus je ke BTS ikut jalan dalam sebab nanti senang nak park keta. FUHHhhh... sharp masuk panggung movie pun start kul 245pm.

War of The World
Cerita yang mula-mula aku pikir citer yang quite ridicilous. Tak masuk akal tapi, lepas tengok. Wow!! citer yang mengisahkan bagaimana Tom Cruise yang dah separated dengan his spouse, jaga anak-anak dia lelaki dan perempuan dengan begitu rapi tatkala konon-kononnya dunia dijajahi dengan makhluk asing yang memang cam tak logik. Tapi dengan jajahan itulah menyebabkan hubungan antara Tom dan anak lelaki kembali terpaut semula yang sebelum ni begitu renggang. Whole story best but unfortunately, ending dia cam hampehh. Ehehehe...

Lepas asar, kitorang menyusuri federal highway dan kerinchi link ke Mutiara Damansara untuk ke Ikea. Sebelum terus park kereta kat Ikea, kitorang singgah dulu Mcdonald untuk isi perut yang berkeroncong. Erm... sempat gak citer pasal planning in future. Bila fikir semula, aku syukur pada Allah since member-member aku adalah dikalangan saudagar minyak wangi yang harum semerbak dan umpama lebah yang sering membawa madu. Aiseh.... ^^ Lepas makan kitorang ke Ikea since aku nak cari a few stuffs, cam book shelf dan bantal. Pergh... aku teruja tengok new furniture sets yang diorang pamerkan. cantik seh... Modern house decoration from Sweden. Awesome!

Dari Mutiara Damansara, aku terus ke BTS semula untuk tengok citer "Mr and Mrs Smith" yang ticketsnya kitorang dah beli waktu beli tickets War of The World tadi. 2 movies dalam satu hari. Nasib baik le dapat member yang sekepala... Thanks Daus. Citer start pukul 915pm.

Mr & Mrs Smith
Initially nak pi tengok citer ni sebab 2 orang actor and actress yang aku minat berlakon dan tengok trailer dia macam best. Jalan cerita dia menarik.Kisah yang menceritakan sepasang husband and wife yang masing-masing try to hiding yang diorang ni spy or secret agent. spy ke? bolehla... Masing-masing ego. So, tenggelamla diorang sebab keegoaan tu. Tapi akhirnya diorang berdua juga yang jadi mangsa agen masing-masing yang cuba nak hapuskan mereka berdua. Cerita dia takle thrill sangat. ada adengan yang tembak tembak, bom bom... tapi tak ekstrem sangat.Kesinambungan cerita dia absolutely great.

1145pm, call eja untuk ajak kuar pi makan kat favourite place kitorang, Taman Tenaga. Aku sampai rumah pukul 1.30am lepas hantar Daus. Mandi, solat isya' dan gedebumm atas katil.
=)

Lepak

2005-07-03T23:55:00.000-07:00

For the entire day aku lepak kat rumah je hari ni. Biasala takde benda nak buat, mengadap laptop je lah. Cuma dalam kul 630pm tadi Daus (My Twin a.k.a my best friend) text aku. Dia tanya whether plannning kitorang nak pi waterfall this coming tuesday jadi ke tak. Ala... most probably tak dapat pegi sebab Eja terpaksa balik kampung since atuk dia admitted dan twin aku lagi sorang lak busy sebab nak hantar adik dia. Erm... daus plak dah tak jadik nak buat part time dia kat sogo sampai 5hb. Sebab penat...

Aku respect la kat dia since every time cuti semester dia takkan nak lepak besarkan badan kat rumah, sure dia akan kuar carik duit poket. Dia ajak keluar malam ni, dah lama tak jumpa. Dia call aku, nak jumpa kat Taman Tenaga. Lepas maghrib tadi aku drive pi umah dia kat sanpeng. Dari jauh dah tersenyum-senyum. Lama gak tak jumpa dia.Kalau dah pi Taman Tenaga, sure kitorang pi makan. Malam ni dia duk cite pasal problems dia. Memang la tak kronik, but its quite weird since dia bukan jenis yang suka cite masalah dia kat orang. Tapi malam ni dia cite ngan aku pasal ex-girlfriend dia yang dah banyak berubah lepas broke up dengan dia. Ex dia banyak buat benda yang tak pernah dia buat sebelum ni yang pastinya benda-benda tu memudaratkan diari sendiri. Erm...aku syorkan daus supaya bantu yang termampu dan cuba nasihat dia walaupun dia dah nasihatkan sebelum ni. At least andai apa-apa yang berlaku pada ex dia takla sgt merasa bersalah pada diri sendiri.

Seperti yang selalu aku ingatkan diri aku, Sesungguhnya apa yang Allah beri itulah yang terbaik untuk diri kita kerana Dia Maha Mengetahui setiap apa yang terjadi.

Initial D

2005-07-01T23:28:00.000-07:00

Hari ni last day praktikal. Pergh!!! Seronok, akhirnya 3 bulan yang penuh dengan tut... tut... dah berakhir. Alhamdulillah. Erm... Aku rasa teruja sangat dan sempena aku dah last day, aku plan dengan Sahlina, Kak Midah dengan Kak Lina untuk ke KLCC tengok Initial D. Sampai kat KLCC pukul 630pm lepas ambil Kak Lina kat Chipac,Keramat.

Initial D.

Best gak citer dia semua elemen ada; Relaks, Akumi memang keperibadian dia relaks jerk dalam citer tu. Even waktu dia drive kereta n68 pun selamber jerk muka dia. Humor, bila ayah Akumi yang memang muka dah slumber dan lawak tak ingat bila dia tido dia boleh tak ingat apa-apa hinggakan bila Akumi seret dia kat tangga, campak atas lantai. Thrill, scene waktu akumi race kereta dengan racer2 lain.Memang thrill giler. Romanance, waktu akumi dating dengan Umitsu kat tepi pantai dan waktu Akumi hantar Umitsu balik umah, siap kiss tu. Sadis, bila Akumi dikecewakan dek Umitsu sampai leleh beb. Hahahah...

Konklusinya, cite ni best rr, tak bazir duit pi tengok. Sesuai arr dengan jiwa youth sekarang yang suka benda yang adventurous.

Counting my blessings...

2005-06-29T23:19:00.000-07:00

Pergh...
Aku menghitung hari. Aku ingat bolehlah dapat last day esok, tapi apa nak buat Bos tak kasik.Tak seronoknya.Takpelah. Berminggu-minggu boleh tunggukan, takkan le sehari dua tak boleh.Tapi okla since dah dapat allowance dan claims petang tadi. ehehehe...

Final Part: Employee VS Student

2005-06-28T00:54:00.000-07:00

Hectic schedule as an employee. (kita amik contoh Isnin jugak)

06.30am
wake up and take shower,(pergh!! sejuk beb,nasib ada heater. Then, solat Subuh.
07.15am
Wearing my slack and shirt with my leather shoes and socks. Huh, protokolnya dan skema. ehehehe
07.35am
having a breakfast.
08.00am
drive through the MRR2 to the Ukay Perdana. Its takes around 15 minutes from my house.
08.20am
reach at the office.
08.30am
start to look up on the outstanding works from the last week. huh...banyaknya yang tak settle. Write it down...
08.45am
switch on pc, start calculating, typing, printing, thinking. Kalau boss ada, lagi kena pretend macam busy with my works. kerja...kerja...kerja... koje yob!!koje... Am i workahorlick person?Uh...
12.30pm
Going out for lunch with my officemate. Cost of the day;
Nasi Goreng USA + Milo Ais + Newspaper = RM 7.20
01.30pm
In the office,solat Zohor.
01.45pm
continue to finish up my works. Buhsan gila babas since radio pun tak boleh pasang. Argh...what a dull life without music!!!
04.45pm
Solat Asar. Kalau bos takda boleh la jugak mengular 10 ke 15 minit.
05.00pm
Print report yang nak kena submit and get ready nak balik umah.
05.30pm
Sharp 530pm. Lampu, air-cond and pc switch off. Muka manis je nak balik.
05.40pm
Muka berkerut balik...Cheh!! Its start stuck everyday, near by with Ampang Putri Hospital. Huargh... Lenguh kaki menekan padel minyak dan brek.
06.15pm
Sampai rumah, take a bath and having dinner.
07.20pm
Solat Maghrib and "lepaking"
08.30pm
Solat Isya'.Hargh...Ngantuk seh...
09.00pm
Iron my clothes for da next day and go to bed.

Is it real life as a employee?huh!klu macam ni memang nak further study ajelah abis Bacc ni.eheheh...

Judging the book

2005-06-25T01:47:00.000-07:00

Tidur malam tadi tak teratur. Lepas Isya' aku dah tak sedarkan diri atas katil.tidur mati. Dalam pukul 10.40pm, aku terjaga. Aku mandi dan keluar minum. Sekejap aje aku keluar,12.15am aku dah ada kat depan laptop ni.Aku online Yahoo Messengger,tapi invisible status.Sebab ramai gak member aku yang tengah on line.Bukan apa, takut tak terlayan.Eheheh...

Sekali ada mamat ni duk "buzz" aku.Pandai-pandai aje dia teka aku in invisible status. Mamat ni aku kenal jumaat minggu lepas, at the first dia sent email kat aku.Dia minta tolong.Tolong dia untuk dia design blog dia.Huh!!. Terperanjat gak aku, yela mana tak nya.Aku pun orang lain yang ajar.Betul tak loq? My sifu... Lepas aku reply email mamat tu,aku suruh dia on line dan add aku tru Yahoo Messengger. Memula, aku malas nak layan gak since nick dia ntah ke benda ntah.Eheheh... jangan marah ha Yet. Nanti kena jual. Tapi itu pasal la ada english's idioms said, dont jugde the whole book by its cover. What we have seen doesn't bring the real meaning of the thing that we see.

Lepas dia add aku,aku mintala blog addresss dia. Saja...nak buat tinjauan macam Karam Sigh Walia. Pergh... mamat rockers rupanya. Lagi kuatla apa yang aku fikirkan pasal dia dengan apa yang dah aku observed. Tapi,takpe kita husnulzon je. perkara yang mula-mula terlintas kat kepala aku.Boleh ke aku "layan" mamat ni. Aku start online dengan mamat ni dari pukul 2.00am hari jumaat. Aku ingat nak layan sekejap je,tapi sampai ke subuh. Sekali mamat ni sikitnya baik and i felt cosy while having virtual conversationwith him.Aku pun memang otak gila-gila sikit.So, boleh masuk ar akhirnya. Dan pagi tadi,3rd times aku chat dengan di via Yahoo Messegger.Sampai aku sakit-sakit perut ketawa sebab borak dengan dia.Lawak gak dia ni.Walaupun dia rocker maut, tapi yang buat aku respect kat dia bila dia cukup bijakhormat orang lain.Even-though, aku baru kenal mamat ni, rasa macam dah lama kenal. Umo 21 tahun, anak sulong.Dia asal kajang dan study lagi.Member-member dia panggil dia, APEQ.Tapi aku panggil dia ayet aje.

Apa yang aku boleh describe pasal dia ni ialah mamat yang muka sentimental, childish, berjiwa rock tapi tak pernah abai dengan tanggungjawab dia dan yang penting he's not pretending to be other people.

Morale of the storynya
Inilah kebaikan bersangka baik dalam islam.Kita tak akan rugi bila kita beri peluang pada diri kita untuk mengenali orang takpernah kita terfikir untuk kenal. Malah, Allah akan beri kita manfaat dariperkara baik yang kita cuba buat.Lagipun, bukan ke Rasulullah sendiri menyuruh kita bersangka baik pada orang lain setiap masa dan ketika. (n_n)

Part 1: Employee VS Student

2005-06-17T22:40:00.000-07:00

Bermula lagi rutin kehidupan aku cuti semester ni.
Kerja...Kerja...Kerja...
Dah hampir 3 bulan lebih. Kehidupan yang membosankan atau aku sendiri yang membosankan. Huh...Its all depend on me, right?After a few months I've jump into this new world, I've learnt a lot... Damn a lot... With all the experiences that I gain, now I am able to differentiate my own life. Life as a student and life as an employee.

Schedule as a student...( Let say on Monday )
06.30am
wake up for Subuh Prayer.
07.00am
go back to the bed. Hehehe...this is the best part!
09.00am
wake up again and prepare for my classes. Takes a shower, wear shirt, jeans & sandal.
09.30am
kiss my mum's chick and drive to my faculty.
09.50am
in the lecture hall, attend for my lectures for 1 hour and 50 minutes.
11.50am
attend for my tutorial classes for nearly 2 hours.
02.00pm
having lunch with my friends whether with Ghadaffi or Kak Bee and Am at Perdana Siswa and squeeze a time for Zohor Prayer. Cost of the day;
Nasi Putih + Ayam goreng + kuah + Sayur + Milo Ais = RM4.50
03.00pm
Attend for my next lectures, from 300pm to 450pm. Go to the faculty's Musolla for Asar Prayer.
05.00pm
Normally, I will go to the Mid Valley Mega Mall with my friends, selalunya Am dengan Kak Bee and play bowling for 2 or 3 games. ( Kalau kelas abis lagi awal, aku dah siap2 booked ticket tengok movie petang tu, selalunya pi dengan Aliff,member kamcing aku kat sekolah dulu)07.30pm
Reach at home and prepare for solat maghrib with my mum and dad.
08.00pm
"Lepak-lepak" and watch news at TV3.
09.00pm
Makes some revision on what that I've learns for the entire day.
10.30pm
surfing internet, check my friendster and yahoo account and reply my email.
12.00am
Solat Isya'and its time to go bed and get ready for the next day.

Ermm...less stress.Have a precious moment with friends and having fun! Its a youth's world. Heheheh.

Real life

2005-06-15T22:39:00.000-07:00

Aku tertarik dengar lagu Jaclyn Victor pagi tadi. Tajuknya “wajah” video clipnya yang menarik dan lirik lagu yang menyentuh hati sesiapa sahaja yang mendengarnya. I really like that song, which is describing the sadness, the suffered situation that has been faces by the unfortunate person out there. Bila aku tontonn clipnya dan aku hayati liriknya, aku rasakan betapa bertuahnya hidup aku ni berbanding sesetengah insan yang ditakdirkan Allah hidupnya kurang sempurna.Melalui kehidupan yang perit,Mengerah keringat demi sesuap nasi agar mampu melalui kehidupan hari esok.Namun, aku yakin mereka pastinya pasrah dengan segala yang ditentukan Allah.Baru aku sedar kenapa harus aku menyesali dengan apay yang telah berlaku sedangkan mereka diluar sana masih tegar melalui hari-hari mendatang walaupun diuji dengan segala liku kehidupan yang memeritkan.Aku amat yakin sesungguhnya kita hanya mampu merancang dan mengatur kehidupan namun segala-galanya ditentukan Allah dan Sesungguhnya perancangan Allah itulah yang terbaik untuk kita kerana Dia lebih mengetahui apa yang terbaik untuk hambaNya.

Simple weekend

2005-06-11T10:36:00.000-07:00

Since today is Saturday so its time for me to wake up a bit late. I’ve no plan for this weekend. Just stay at home and spend my leisure time to watch TV and do other things. My mum, my sis, my niece nephew and I went out to the Jusco. We bought a present for Haziq. Today is his 2nd birthday. I just stay alone at home while my entire family members went to my brother’s house at Puncak Bukit Jalil. 7.450 pm after Maghrib prayer, I switch to Astro Ria and waiting to watch Akademi Fantasia season 3. As for last season, I’ve voted for Anding Indrawani.Tapi musim ni aku memang dah decide untuk support Mawi since suara dia marvellous giler.

Blessing Friday

2005-06-10T10:32:00.000-07:00

Penghulu segala hari datang lagi. Hari ni, kali kedua aku solat fadhu jumaat di masjid yang sama di Ulu Kelang.Erm... tak ada apa yang aku nak coretkan hari ini. Tak banyak benda yang berlaku hari.

Tapi tetiba je aku layan lagu Dehearty ni...

-Pasrah Segalanya-
Pernah hati ini terguris
Dengan fitnah dan tohmahan menghiris
Sehingga terasa diri ini hina
Kerana tiada siapa yang sudi membela
Kutabahkan hatiku harungi hidup
Biarpun tiada siapa yang menemani
Keseorangan aku di lautan sepi
Ditinggalkan mereka yang aku percayai

Namun ku tahu ada hikmahnya
Setiap segala yang menimpa diri
Kuserahkan segala padaMu Tuhan
Yang berkuasa jua mencipta
Kerana engkau MAha Mengetahui
SEgala apa yang terbuku di hati

C/O:Ya Allah tidakku terdaya lagi
Menahan dugaan yang mencabar ini
Terasa bagai noktah telah kutemui
Mengakhiri segala yang telah aku mulai
Ya Allah engkau lindungilah aku
Bekalkanlah daku dengan limpahan iman
Agar tabahku menghadapi dugaan
Agar tidakku berhenti di pertengahan

Kini di sini aku berdiri
Bersama harapan yang tulus suci
Agar terbitlah kembali menteri pagi
Setelah malamku berkalut benci

lagu & lirik : Syam(Syamer DeHearty)

Meander path of my life

2005-06-09T22:24:00.000-07:00

Jam kat hand phone nih dah pukul 320am. Mata aku masih tak boleh nak lena. Aku macam bermimpi terima msg dia tadi. Argh... 4 tahun yang sia-sia. Aku harap panas hingga ke petang.
Tapi pagi-pagi lagi langit dah mendung dan bumi dah pun basah di timpa hujan. Aku dah lepaskan dia. Aku fikir itu yang terbaik buat kami. Dan itu jugalah pilihan dan keputusannya.
Aku tak mampu nak buat apa-apa.“Usah mengharap pada sesuatu yang tak pasti dan yang tidak akan menjadi pasti...”

Apa yang berlaku pada aku ni menguatkan lagi rasa percaya aku pada ayat dalam Kalam Allah,
“Sesungguhnya wanita yang solehah itu tempatnya disisi lelaki yang soleh.”
Insya Allah... Aku pasti dia akan dapat seorang teman yang lebih baik dan sempurna dari diri aku. Because I know she deserve.

Aku lewat pagi ni.Aku tak sedar pukul berapa aku terlelap pagi tadi. Yang pasti aku masih terpinga-pinga dengan apa yang dah berlaku. Yang pasti juga hati ni rasa pilu. Masih segar lagi dalam ingatan aku. Bagaimana aku dengan dia mula-mula bersama. Waktu tu, aku baru habis matrik kat Kuala Pilah dan dia pulak dah masuk ke UiTm,Jengka. 23 April 2001. Aku propose dia. Aku ni tak gentleman. Aku propose dia through hand phone jer. A week after, aku jumpa dia. Aku bawakan 3 kuntum roses untuk dia dan kami ke sogo. Hang around. Waktu tu, aku naik LRT lagi. Dan hubungan kami ketika tu flow smoothly je. Argh!!!
Stress…
Frustrated…
Hopeless…
Lonely…
Feeling damn sad…
Regret…

Unforgettable

2005-06-08T23:28:00.000-07:00

Today is my beloved mum’s birthday. She’s 53 years old today.
Aku tak sempat pun pagi tadi nak wish her happy birthday since bila aku turun nak breakfast, mak tak ada sebab keluar dengan kakak aku, angah (atau aku lebih selesa dengan panggilan Umi), untuk beli ikan dan sayur kat kedai pakcik Arif. Hanya yang ada kat dapur waktu tu Along dan Kak Long yang tengah tengok Malaysia Hari Ini sambil bersarapan dengan aku.
Erm…aku hanya melangkah longlai sebab tak dapat nak salam dan kucup pipi dan tangan mak sambil ucapkan “selamat hari lahir mak…” Kat luar rumah, Ayah tengah menyapu laman. Aku capai tangannya, ku kucup dan terus start engine kereta menuju ke Pandan Mewah untuk ambil Sahlina dan ke office. Ayah dia outstation ke Kuching, so dia kena tumpang aku ke office pagi ni sejak isnin lalu hingga jumaat ni.

Sampai kat office, semua kerja dah aku settle kan semalam, cuma tengah tunggu kerja tu di review oleh Encik Zahari. Kalau ada mistakes, barulah kena buat correction kat audited report tu. Sepanjang Encik Zahari tak ada kat office, aku asyik berSMS dengan my sweetheart.
We facing a big problem and we get quarrel since a month ago. Before this tak pernah pun bertekak dan bermasalah macam ni. Dulu, we such a loving couple. Kalau bergaduh dan merajuk sikit2 tu, adat ar kan...tapi ni lain macam je.

6.12pm
Aku terus solat asar dan campakkan diri kat atas katil lepas hantar Sahlina kat rumah dia.
Balik tadi aku perasan mak tengah sibuk kat dapur menggoreng Bee Hun dan mentanak pulut kunig. Sure nak buat minum petang dan malam ni. Aku dengar pintu aku di ketuk kuat. "pak usu bangun, dah nak masuk Maghrib". Suara niece aku, Aina, terpekik dari luar bilik. Aku capai towel, mandi dan solat. Kat dapur semua tengah menunggu aku untuk sambut birthday mak. Aku baca doa selamat dan doa makan.

“Moga emak dipanjangkan umur, dimurahkan rezeki, dikurniakan kesihatan yang baik dan mendapat keredhaan Allah dunia dan akhirat...”

Umi dah beli kek (Marble Cheese Cake, favourite aku sehh…cam ne tah chubby) Ada org delivered petang tadi dengan bouquet of roses. Aku pun pergi arr ambil present yang aku beli last Monday. Aku tak beli expensive stuff pun, ye ar setakat allowance Industrial Training yang 3 ratus tu, mana nak cukup. Tapi org kata; harga hadiah tu penting, tapi dah memadai kalau kita ingat. I bought my mum a pair of shoes. She’s really like it and its cosy to her. Seronok ar, bila mak suka ape yang aku beri.

10.54pm
Aku terperap dalam bilik lepas sambut birthday mak tadi. Aku masih teringat-ingat lagi msg yang dia hantar petang tadi. Aku baca berkali-kali msg tu. Entahla...Mungkin aku kena belajar terima kenyataan.

New place…New Experiences…

2005-06-07T10:15:00.000-07:00

Kosong jerk lagi blog aku.Seperti mana kosongnya jiwa aku hari ni. I’m just going through my life today as usual. There’s nothing interesting happened. Cuma, hari ni dah seminggu aku continue Industrial Training aku kat new office. Its means, dah seminggu juga nightmare aku berakhir kat previous office. Erm... Its was a new experiences worked at my previous office kat Jalan Imbi tu.

My new office, ZHR Management Services, is located at Ukay Perdana. Although it is a tiny firm, but I really feel free working here with my old friend, Shalina. Shalina is my old friend at my last secondary school and she is doing her practical as well. The owner of this firm is Encik Zahari. He is a kind-hearted person since he’s very tolerable to employ me even I only need to work in his firm for a month.

He is an Islamic person and tries to expand and run his business based on Islamic principles. Jujur dalam berurusan, Suci dalam perbuatan dan Luhur dalam tindakan. Hopefully, every single day that I face off will flow as what that I have plan for the next 3 weeks.

First Move

2005-06-06T10:08:00.000-07:00

I’ve set up my blog since few weeks ago. But, I still lack of ideas on what that want to jot down here...
Besides, I’m quite lazy to type down. As I said, it was a few weeks ago. Today, I’ve made up my mind to start colouring my blog with all the things that I had faces a long the day.