Afar

I'm at loose end today. Being alone. Seperti hari-hari sebelum ni yang aku lalui. Banyak benda yang aku titipkan dalam kepala ni. Banyak masalah yang perlu aku leraikan tiap simpulnya. Kadang-kala aku terfikir, sampai bila harus aku lalui kehidupan seperti ni. Hidup dalam ketidakpastian.Hidup dalam kepura-puraan. Terlalu banyak simpang perlu aku ambil. For sake of other’s feelings. I am afraid someone will hurt with my decision especially my mum.
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Inner part of my heart, I am thinking of you and I really miss you. I truly miss your smile, your voice...Whenever that feeling swing by in my heart, I look at your picture and deep into your eyes. How I wish you were here, beside me. Accompany me to go through this cruel life and to encounter a trying time that I face.However, I realize that i only trying to catch the pie over the skies. It is only a bare dream to feel your love. It is impossible for me.