Afar

I'm at loose end today. Being alone. Seperti hari-hari sebelum ni yang aku lalui. Banyak benda yang aku titipkan dalam kepala ni. Banyak masalah yang perlu aku leraikan tiap simpulnya. Kadang-kala aku terfikir, sampai bila harus aku lalui kehidupan seperti ni. Hidup dalam ketidakpastian.Hidup dalam kepura-puraan. Terlalu banyak simpang perlu aku ambil. For sake of other’s feelings. I am afraid someone will hurt with my decision especially my mum.
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Inner part of my heart, I am thinking of you and I really miss you. I truly miss your smile, your voice...Whenever that feeling swing by in my heart, I look at your picture and deep into your eyes. How I wish you were here, beside me. Accompany me to go through this cruel life and to encounter a trying time that I face.However, I realize that i only trying to catch the pie over the skies. It is only a bare dream to feel your love. It is impossible for me.

Treasure of verve

Life full of uncertainty and hold too much hopes. My life won't always beautiful, yet I couldn’t fulfill what that I desired. At times, I felt unsecured. I grasp whatever obstacles attempt to block my route, I should face it and ought to be vigorous, exuberance, as he said everything happens for reasons, and I should dig cradle to grave for the wisdoms against it. Ya Allah, kindly send me someone that could hold tight my hand and guide me to the right path in searching and probing for your blessing.
"A grin will never lose and frown will never ever prevail."
-I do believe-