Opportunities bring me into dilemma

Here goes my writing again. It seems I being so diligent and has bunched of ideas this few days. It might because of the boredom I have to bear and as one of the ways that I could articulate my jiwa yang tgh kacau ni.

Ahh… let it be. Just look and step forward. That will be good.
Ye kot.

Alhamdulillah, praised to Allah. Rezeki mencurah-curah lately. I got phone calls from 2 companies that I’d applied for a vacancy. And now it put me stand at the middle of the junction. Either I should turn left for the mining company that located at Setiawangsa with monthly salary RM 1500 and offer a year contractual employment OR I should go to the other way which is Petronas. Petronas offer a contract basis job as well and pay extra another RM100. The opportunities are there, but kenapala ianya bukan my dream job. God, help me!
Am I so picky and choosy?

*Thinking*

No Title... ( Is it necessary?)

Stare at my life and pass me by, isn’t easy. I don’t want to be frozen eternally in the shadow of my previous mistakes and definitely I don’t want to waste another day of my life for it. I try to chase every single day and try to fill it up with joy and delight that I desired for. But at the other side should I be anxious about an upcoming threat and peril that might be happen ahead?

I’m in quandary.

I hate a misfortune, weeping and cheating, all the fooling around.
Being alone and why it keeps repeating?

Please take me out from this dark hole.

I'm desperated!

Confession

You should know; when a jerk and stupid person begin to hate you, it is because he/she love you to a point of passion that unhinges his/her soul.

I realize this is a really fu*king silly and dim-witted confession. However, it is what that i can called from the inner part of my heart. Its ruined my feelings and my mind.

Broken

I wish that you would just leave. Cause your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone. These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real, there's just too much that time cannot erase.I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone. But though you're still with me,I've been alone all along.

Hatred

Dogs love their friends and bite their enemies, quite unlike people, who are incapable of pure love and always have to mix love and hate.

Sigmund Freud

The other side of you

It's nice to know that you were there. So thanks for acting like you cared and making me feel like I was the only one. It's nice to know we had it all. Thanks for watching as I fall and letting me know we were done.